the fest show was awesome, one of the hugest crowds ive ever played for and it went really well. galaxy was a relief to just sit and eat fries and kiss my date and cheer sam rockwell. we stayed at tim’s guest house. he owns the drafthouse chain and is always super nice to me. michael drove us around and filled us with sonic (mac and cheese bites! and i had my first cherry limeaid) and video games. the girls at amy’s ice cream have nice butts and they bend over for ur iced cream. i was thankful for the booty sample. i got pumpkin pie ice cream. word.
today before i left austin i had to get a new inhaler. and the wait at the pharmacy took two hours just about. and it was pretty much hell, except the girl at the counter was cute and i kinda fell for her as i walked around and looked at all the creams, cards and crazy crafts. her name was ally and she said was from jersey and was there cuz she got sick of the NE. i can see that. i hate austin cuz it makes me want to live there. and i think im tired of moving around because it’s all i ever seem to do. if u read this ally. please write. ur too cute with ur red hair and ur glasses.
i did have a date on galaxy night but i feel like i made a great stride as a human being even though it was sad to see her so sad. but dan savage helped me realize i was dating young girls because they’re easy to fool and can’t assess my character and even though it’s lots of cute fun, i have to stop. i think it’s fun to fool around and date, but i have a habit of falling hard for these girls at my shows. i just wasnt very successful in my twenties, and i feel like i really have to live this life to the fullest now, kiss as many girls as i can, have as much sex as possible (which is still hardly ever before u start calling me slut.)
i was raised to think sex was wrong and just for child bearing. masturbation was something to be despised and ashamed of, sex was for heathens. there could be no joy in it. but now i’m older and free of catholicism and i know sex rules and when done safely and with the right mindset, it can be a mind blowing experience pt. i try to enjoy sex ie without shame, i try to get better at it, i love it to be honest and in this way i’m no different from most. but like i said im growing up, and i can feel the tractor beam of monogamy drawing me in. i want to be with just one person. i don’t like the appetizer sampler. so it’s time to stop kidding myself with these young girls. i actually said to my most recent crush that i have to find someone my age that lives in new york. no more fucking around. literally. i’m feeling very, i dunno, feminine, because these eager beavers are tapping me out and i want romance and for things to go slow. it is sad to say goodbye tho. we listened to country legends today, the best radio station all tour, just old country we’d never heard of and lots of willie and dolly. i couldnt help but look out the window and feel like knowing what u want sometimes just makes u feel shittier. lonelier. old country will fuck u up.
speaking of gayness, i went to disneyland! that night we did anaheim and it was one of my favorite shows. i had no food in my system and was all kinds of beat, but sometimes those are two of the many right factors (along with intense anger) that can make for a bomb show. nothing bad happened. and this tour has been a daily bum out for some reason. someone is always fucking up my shit, press lameness, internet lameness, pissing in the front row, smokey venues, bad sound, drunk people of every variation, walking into my stall while i’m crapping, trying to coordinate with anxious ladies, lots of stress. but anaheim was awesome.
immediately i wanted to do jungle cruise because of the upcoming movie. i explained hidden mickeys to taylor and we found like three and then got into the habit of asking attendants where they were because they HAVE TO TELL U. if they know that is. and we found that if the employee was a geek they’d know and talk ur ear off about it or they’d be like, no idea put ur seatbelt on. we learned to ask before because we were spotting wishful thinking ones. or accidents. the jungle cruise guide was awesome and really funny, “oh no elephants! like i dont see that every day…. all day. i hate my job, but seriously folks.” he cracked us up. so i took his picture. jungle cruise was hella racist as usual, and i found it funny that the guide fired on the robot hippos but not at the natives throwing spears at us. it’d be awesome if he just starting killing natives. and i dont mean i approve of killing natives (even tho i live in america) i just like to see disney fuck up.
then we did indiana jones, it was my first time. and i loved it. i think i took too many pictures all day but it will pay off when i get home and scan and we can all look at it over thanksgiving, when we want to get away from the fam. we found the hidden mickey in the sala movie room. it’s between the two lights on the left wall. awesome.
then we did haunted mansion. no lines, everything was ten minutes it was awesome, so we were really cruising thru the park. the mansion was not as cool an exterior as florida and it was tricked out all nightmare before christmas stylie, but whatever, still cool. i just dont like black light rides. and i’ve yet to see the mansion ride in its original state. i thought we’d see the new attic, but that’s florida. the mansion eludes me. i did find the mickey in the stained glass in the er (extending room, but the attendants called it the er) and in the dining room. plates on the table. two ears, face, check, check.
i did manage to ride toads wild ride and snow whites scary adventure and wouldve ridden pan but the line was long. toad’s is now a winnie the pooh ride in florida so it’s a west coast only exp. he gets drunk, goes on a drive and then gets in an accident and then is sentenced by a judge to HELL. awesome. and the snow white ride was really scary. and the little kid in the car in front of me was balling. and that kid was me. 
those woods are dark yall.
i got nightmare before christmas mickey ears and had my name stitched on the back. i was pretty happy. we also did matterhorn, space mountain and the roger rabbit ride. space mountain was the only cool part but i think it’s cuz i really like music played while u ride when the speakers are right by ur ears. cant wait for the hard rock park and the led zeppelin ride. the dude in front of me asked the attendant to get new music as soon as the ride was over. she was like, i’ll get right on that. i was like, i liked that part best. i like corny electronic disney music from the sixties. what’s not to like about it?
with one hour left we ran over to california and rode screamin and the river raft ride. it was ok but i felt like california was lame and there was no real style to it. the rollercoaster was lame but i liked the music that played in the cars. we took like five cameras full of shots.
the show afterwards was really fun like i said, and then we had phoenix which was not fun, but the crowd looked great and it was cool to have skateboards for the first time ever. we stayed with great friends that made us pulled pork sandwhiches and cookies and they had the new office on tivo. score! they even had a dry eraser board with a huge diagram on it explaining the time continuum of lost. kramer said even though he put it up there it was completely invalid. it was good to see my tusken raiders in the abq. and the lubbock show was sick. biggest one of tour. around five hundred peeps. great nrg from the crowd, it was a good prep for the the even huger audience in austin.
sorry im rushing through all this, but this is what tour feels like, different day, different adventure. i’ve been watching heroes season two on my vlc. it sucks bad in like every way. where is the red haired girl that hiro fell for in season one. she’s the only part i’ve liked so far. two seems stupid and the more plot they reveal the more i dislike everything about it. sorry general electric. i do enjoy hating gossip girl though. watched three eps last night. it’s like recycled 90210 and OC. it’s by the oc guy too. it’s just so rehashed, but i love that the walshes live in williamsburg now and the dad is a one hit wonder grunge rocker that now has an art gallery called the bedford avenue gallery. that IS hip. i also watched all the curbs i had too. i love larry. and i’m glad cheryl finally left him. i so wanted him to score some xena tang. she was looking awesome but, LONG BALLS.
sorry long post.
ps. to those in the nw that are mad at me, pinback asked me to tour the west coast (including canada west coast) with them in february. kblao!
